Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

Friday, December 5, 2014

Caring for A Sapling

Faith is like water to plants. It is why God uses the example of water/rain reviving the dead earth over and over again in the Qur'an just like how He brings life to a (spiritually) dead heart through faith.

What's interesting is that you have to gradually water a fragile plant with tiny amounts in the beginning because if you inundate/flood it with too much water, it's likely going to be damaged with the overwhelming pressure it has to bear. However, once the same plant turns into a big strong tree, not only does it have the capacity to absorb more water, grow and nourish; it also is now able to benefit others by giving fruits of its own. In the worse case scenario, it also has the ability to become a pillar of its own and withstand outside pressures such as strong winds and floods without causing too much damage to itself.

Similarly, the human heart is the same. If you dump too much water on it in its baby stages of acquiring faith (in God), you might kill it. That's why it took THIRTEEN YEARS of faith-building before God could send down any injunction onto Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessing be upon him) and his companions. He gradually built them and their hearts with gentle spurts of faith and once they had become big and strong trees, they could finally handle the responsibilities and regulations that came along with them being Muslims (literally: those who submit to God).

How patient are we to those around us? How gentle are we to ourselves? Do we give ourselves and others at least thirteen years to grow and nourish before we even come close to being despondent?

Just like the stones that take a while to make space for rivers to pour forth, give yourself and others the time and opportunity to grow. Faith will eventually sink in and perhaps benefit you even more than you could have ever imagined! :)

"...No doubt, there are stones out of which rivers gush forth, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which split so that water flows from them, and indeed, there are of them (stones) which fall down in awe of God..." - Qur'an 2:74
Beet Saplings: Bear Creek Community Church Garden, Irving TX

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Reconnecting with Two Long-forgotten Friends


"I drank the silence of God from a spring in the woods." -- Georg Trakl


The woods swayed around me. No longer quiet but loud. Not calm but raging. As if...they were angry. They were angry because I had forgotten their mother, Nature. I had forgotten them and their best friend, Silence. I stood amid their magnificence as the wind howled against us. Staring onto the horizon, holding on tightly to my mug of hibiscus tea. Head bowed, tears streaming down my face.

Defeated. Yet accomplished. Weak. Yet so strong.

I whispered meekly, "I am sorry."

Nature spoke, "God and I were there for you when you had no one. We embraced you all those times when you treaded over the fallen leaves in the woods, laid down at the river bank, gazed the full moon, and fell asleep on a pillow of flowers under the shade of the spring sun. We comforted your heart and supplied you serenity. How dare you replace us with (false) Attachment?"

I opened my mouth to say something but then shut it instantaneously. I really had nothing to offer in defense.

Silence broke its long-maintained silence, "I was your most favorite companion. Every single day of your life we both held hands together, especially in the dark hours when others are in bed. How could you forget those solitary walks under the night sky and the bike rides at sunrise when we'd be interfered by none? Am I not one of the major reasons why you want to live on a farm - away from the clutter and commotion of a city? How unfortunate that you even forgot to mention my importance in your life to Attachment?!"

I responded dejectedly, "I guess I got carried away when it entered my life. I wanted to converse and spend time with it so much so that I never realized when I started worshiping it. Sadly, that's how I lost you on the way, dear Silence. By God, it was never my intention to let you go. Sigh! He has indeed brought me down to my knees so that I can be reunited with Him and you. God has left me with no choice but to embrace you and Nature back in my life. I wish we didn't have to reconcile this way but I didn't wish for so many things either."

And that's when it hit me that today, it was indeed over. Today was the day to commemorate the parting. My shoulders sagged and fresh hot tears began to swell in my eyes.

It was at this particular moment that God interjected my bleak thoughts:
"Your Lord has neither forsaken you nor hated you. And indeed the Hereafter is better for you than the present (life of this world). And verily, your Lord will give you (all that is good) so that you shall be well-pleased." - Quran 93:3-5

The gold and silver linings of the clouds glowed brighter. The woods humbled and Silence regained its composure. Finally, a smile broke across my lips.

I said to Nature and Silence, "See guys! He doesn't hate me and I guess this is not the end. I know it seems like it, but it's really not! This day shall mark a new beginning for us, a new journey, a new love story. We won't let (false) Attachment ever destroy our relationship. I promise. There's hope. There's light. And most importantly: there is sincerity with the self and Allah swt.

رضيت بالله رباً، وبالإسلام ديناً، وبمحمد صلى الله عليه وسلم نبيا
I am content with Allah as my Lord, Islam as my religion and Muhammad (peace be upon him) as my messenger.

The whole world can leave me but as long as I am able to hold on to my Allah, my Islam, and my messenger, I am good. We all are good. As a matter of fact, that's all we need in life, don't we?"

Upon hearing this, Nature and Silence both smiled in agreement. Without saying a word, we all understood that there is a reason why God created us as a trio.

I bid farewell to the woods and steadily walked towards the bus. It was time to return to Boston. Better and stronger.

It was time to finally let go.

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On the weekend of February 15h-17th I was blessed to be part of the MAS Boston Winter Retreat that took place in the beautiful Berkshires, MA. As one of the main leaders, I was not obligated to stick to a group, and hence ended up stealing quiet moments here and there to have multiple conversations like the one above with God, Nature and Silence. Instead of socializing with friends, some that I actually looked forward to seeing after a long time, I chose to either sip a cup of tea all by myself in the dining hall or squeeze in a moment with the woods. The greatest celebration of my reunion with Nature and Silence took place during the times when I made my late night rounds from one lodge to another in efforts to ensure that the sisters were all set. It was during those solitary moments that I would sing Dawud Wharnsby's Lullaby out loud and find comfort in the fact that I was the only one outdoors in those wee hours of the night when no one except God could hear or see me. 

I am glad that I was part of the retreat, I am glad for meeting and working with the lovely people I got to know because of the retreat, I am glad that God chose me for the leadership position, and I am glad that other things in life eventually happened the way they happened. Were it not for the darkest hour of the night, we would never appreciate the break of dawn. Indeed it is the break of dawn that leads to a new day and a new beginning. Alhamdulillah ala kulli Haal (all praise to Allah under any and all circumstances)! I can't be more blessed!



Thursday, February 21, 2013

And I make Umm Salamah's dua


Umm Salamah (may Allah be pleased with her) reported, "I heard the messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) saying, 'When a person suffers from a calamity and utters: 'inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un. Allahumma ajarni fi musibati, wakhluf li khayran minha (we belong to Allah and to Him we shall return. O Allah compensate me in my affliction, recompense my loss and give me something better in exchange for it), then Allah surely compensates him with reward and better substitute."
Umm Salamah (ra) said, "When Abu Salamah (ra) died, I repeated the same supplication as the Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) had commanded me (to do), so Allah bestowed me a better substitute than him." 
-- Muslim

Thursday, February 7, 2013

The clouds will clear

There is a void in the heart that is hard to fill
There is wound in the chest that is difficult to heal.
This pain will end
And these eyes will smile.
The darkest clouds will clear
And the brightest of the days will appear.




Thursday, January 10, 2013

Uncertainty

We came back
To where we started from.
Back to square one.
With no direction,
No companionship,
No ambition.

Alone, lost, confused
And broken.
In million pieces.
Where are the pieces?
Do you have them?
Or did we lose them on our way?

Where are the promises?
Did we forget them too?
Or are they safe somewhere
Locked up in a safe?
Ready to be opened
And unfolded.

Hey! I see a tiny sliver of hope
To guide us through this darkness.
Do you see it too?
Oh, my! Your eyes are closed.
Wake up! It's not time to sleep yet!
We still have such a long way yet to go.

Layers upon layers
Of darkness upon darkness.
I realize it is bleak and scary
But please hold my hand.
I know faith is hard to come by,
Especially, when there is... no real sign of light.

Just follow me along,
I'm sure we can discover the sunrise together.
Yunus (as) did it too,
But only after being stranded in the darkness
And going through what he went through.

Ayub, Ibrahim, Yusuf, Musa, and Zakariya (as),
And our very own beloved Muhammad (pbuh).
All had their shares of darkness,
So what if we have one too?
Keep walking and keep following along
Insha'Allah we'll find our light too.

Followers